…beyond explanation.
-Hormones – check
-David out of town – check
-Tired – check
-Kids complaining, over EVERYTHING – check
-Logan tracking pollen footprints all over my just cleaned hardwoods - double check
My morning has dealt me a hand that sets me up to fail. As I keep looking down the hall, I swear the footprints get larger. Ugh. I have a day in front of me that is going to be hard. That is not the question. The question is whether or not I am a better person because of it. Will I make choices that are hard and lean towards the character I want, or choices that, hard as well, stay planted in the character I am…at the moment.
I roll my neck, let out a deep sigh and pray…inhale…Abba, exhale…I belong to you. Repeat…daily, hourly, momentarily…every second of my life. This makes me think
Have you read Brennan Manning’s new book? I need to get mine back from Chris, it is, as all of Brennan’s books are, a joy and struggle to read. I fall in love with him every time. I really do. He is someone who I look at and love, because I see my Father and brother and soul lover when I look at him. He is who I want to be like, because he is Christ like and not. He hasn’t gotten there yet, messes up continually, and still strives on, with the confidence of one who can, because of love…a furious love. (Read his new book)
So as I reflect(…Abba…I belong to you…Abba…) and remember as He smiles on me and runs His fingers through my hair. Kisses my head and tells me to go ahead with my day…I am going to TRY and make the better choice. Whether that be the character I am at the moment or who I want to be…
Stepping in.
My, oh, my. How parenting can make us feel so ugly and inadequate at times. I love how aware you are of how your presence and response effect your children, both good and bad. How well they will know that their mother is real. There is such comfort in that. I am going to check out that book. B
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